Spark.

I recently had a few minor mental breakdowns in the past couple of weeks. Trust me when I say they were minor cause, I have had full blown major earth shattering breakdowns and these were very very minor. 
These aren’t in any sense physically harmful but let me tell you something they are mentally, spiritually, and emotionally exhausting!

Let me explain…do you ever have one of those days..weeks …or maybe you have felt this way your whole life…where nothing seems to be going terribly wrong but you’re just stuck. Maybe your career isn’t as gratifying as it used to be, your favorite workout class has lost its luster, your favorite beer doesn’t taste as good as it used too, or Lord help you, if your bedroom life seems to be suffering. 
Like I said it’s nothing detrimental to your physical or mental state but your emotional state is just blah.

I think I finally figured out what causes this rut. My constant need for more. Hear me out.  I would love to see my friends MORE. I would love to travel MORE. I would love to feel MORE satisfied at work. I would love to try new things MORE. I want to listen to music MORE. I want to spin MORE. I want MORE free time to myself. And I know some people are thinking then just do it, quit whining and make time for these things. 

However, it is so much easier said than done! Do you ever work a full day, didn’t really accomplish that much and then come home and are exhausted…why is that? Where did my energy go? Did my work chair just suck it right out of me??

No. I lost the spark. Your spark is what keeps you going, it is how you thrive. Doing what you love keeps you going. Surrounding yourself with things you love. Negative energy is a real thing. I hate that I am 25 and just learning this. But living, working, or surrounding yourself with negative energy really will suck the life out of you.

My question to you all is how do I get that spark back. Am I just being a whiny millennial? Am I just being a brat cause I don’t have time to sit around listening to music and drinking wine? How do you find the time to keep your spark?

Please don’t take this next comment as preachy, it is more so a reminder to myself, you NEED to find those things to look forward to: finishing a project at work, mastering a new recipe, killing that sprint set in your spin class, whatever makes you happy and encourages you to take it to the next level and not just to slide out of your comfort zone but to full on PUSH you out of your comfort zone.  

In the famous words of Nike..

Just Do It